2018 : A year in review.
Hello there, it had been such a longgg time since I last posted any post on my blog. So here it is. I would like to recap and reflect about 2018. There are a lot of reflection to do on this unforgettable year. 2018 really taught me a lot of things. So, I thought that it would be nice for me to answer a few questions for a year in review for 2018.
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View from Pantai Teluk Ketapang, Terengganu.
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So here are a few questions for A Year in Review on 2018.
1. 3 words that best describe your 2018.
- Drama, Happiness and Gratefulness.
2. Biggest lesson that I learnt this year.
- The biggest lesson I learnt this year is that we must always put Allah in the first place. We should always remember that ni every difficulties that Allah had put me in, there will always some eases that Allah will gives me and for that I really feel grateful to Allah for every single thing happened in my 2018.
3. Biggest change I made this year.
- I realised that since I kept saying alhamdulillah and changed my cursed words (I used to curse a lott like really I swear) into something better eg. Allahuakbar, Subhanallah. Lifes get easier and I feel more peace. Alhamdulillah.
4. Best decision I made this year.
- I am really grateful that I can finally detached myself from toxic people in my life, toxic relationships and friendships. I feel like a huge burden had been take off from my shoulder when I finally made that decision. It’s okay for you to leave your-so-called best friend and find someone better because you deserve it. Get up and leave that toxic circle. 😉
5. Best single achievement this year.
- My best single achievement for this year is I got to go to hospital and clinic to meet patient and have a quick chat with them just to build a rapport with them. It’s really nice to get to know your patient and alhamdulillah I got early clinical exposure which is really gonna be helpful for me during my clinical years in upcoming years insyaAllah. Ps : do pray for me to pass my preclinical years.
6. Who help me to go through 2018.
- First and foremost is obviously Allah who help me the mostt to go through my dramatic 2018. Believe me when you rely on Allah for all your works, things will get easier insyaAllah. I also have my friends who were always there when I need them. They are the one who guided me and gave me some advices to go through all those difficulties, troubles and problems in 2018.
7. Which worry was unnecessary this year.
- It is really unnecessary for me to worry of losing people whom you thought will be there for the rest of your life because life is to short to worry for that stuff. You lost one person today, there are 7 billions people in this world who will be there for you. Sometimes it’s better to let go of that one person from your life and it will changed your life to become much and much better.
8. How did you grow emotionally this year.
- I grew up from someone who really cares and worries on what will happen to the person who lives in the present. I used to really care about the future and it scares me but when I realised that I need to really enjoy the present and be with the people who cares and loves me, I got nothing to loose in the future.
9. Your happiest moment in 2018.
- I got a lott of happiest moment in this year. I realised that it’s always me who decides my mood for the day. It’s you who made your day. It’s all about your mind set and your perspective about lifes. It’s you who matters the most. Happiness is a choice. Always choose to be happy otherwise you will regret about it in the future.
10. Your saddest moment of 2018.
- My saddest moments are when two of my besties from my childhood get married this year. I know I shouldn’t be sad about it but I can’t help but to have this feeling. It won’t be the same anymore after this. You can’t really spent time together like you always have to be. But, this is life right ? I really hope that both of you will be happily ever after and have a forever marriage insyaAllah. Ps: one of them already pregnant and I am sooo excited for it 😆
There is never enough words to sum up everything happens in a year but everything happens for a reason. 2018 really taught me that the person whom you don’t really expect to know is now one of your best friends (you know who you are dear) and the person whom you wish to stay in your life forever can leave you. It’s okay. Life must always go on.
I hope everything will come to an ease for the next coming years insyaAllah and do pray for us for our first professional exam next year !!!
Fake it till you make it, signing off, xoxo.
Feel free to drop your comments on what you feel on 2018 💕
What I feel about 2018
ReplyDeleteDon’t break a bird wings and then tell it to fly.
Don’t break a heart and tell it to love.
Don’t break a soul and then tell it to be happy.
Don’t see the worst in a person and expect them to see the best in you.
Don’t judge people and expect them to be by my your side.
Don’t play with fire and expect to stay perfectly safe.
Life is about giving and taking.
Walk away from argument that lead me to anger and nowhere.
Walk away from people who deliberately put me down.
Walk away from the practice of pleasing people who choose to never see my worth.
Walk away from any thought that undermines my peace of mind.
Walk away from judgmental people, they do not know the struggle I am facing and what I have been through.
Walk away from my mistakes and fears, they do not determine my fate.
Realising that the more I walk away from things that poison my soul, the healthier my life will be. When I look back on the past, I never thought I could do it all the way up till now. It’s the year that I have been through a whole heck of a lot of emotional stuff and I just keep everything to myself. At the end of the day I know I am able to endure much more than I think I can. The thing is if I don’t succeed at things in my life, it won’t be the end of my world, I will keep on preserving and picking myself up again on my own in which I will always do to move forward.
The biggest lesson I learned this year is not to force anything; conversations, friendships, relationships, attention and love. Anything forced is not just worth fighting for, whatever flows flows, what crashes crashes. It is what it is.
A year where i grow into a better person. I realise that some parts of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognise that growth is happening. Sometimes I feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical or even depressed. Worrying over all the things that aren’t worth my energy. It’s the process of changing, of actually becoming larger spiritually than I am before. It’s like a young seed that must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way of becoming a plant.
I’ve seen better days but I’ve also seen worse. I don’t have everything I want, but I do have all the things I need. I woke up with some aches and pains but I smile so bright. My life may not be perfect, but I so thankful that I am blessed. I am so grateful to be around people who make my life happy in so many ways and I really appreciate them for being an important part of life.
Hoping that 2019 will be a brand new start and I will never let myself fall as low as I did this year. I can’t go back and change the beginning, but I can start where I am now and change the ending.